Reflections Along a Journey Under a Million Stars



Marcus CCC

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Published Online by Noahide Books

All Rights Reserved to Marcus CCC

Copyright 2014 Marcus CCC

Published with Permission



Dedication


The present little book and work is dedicated to the staff and clients of the Leisure and Day to Day Living Programs at Tuggeranong. Special mention must be made of Gillian Pollack, whose creative writing class I am indebted to, Daniel Daly, whose help on word processing was of vital importance, and Serena Fisher, without whom the project would never have got off the ground.


Special thanks to Peter Di Fronzo for his friendship and love over the years.>>>

Foreword

These pieces of creative writing were put together after a series of hospital stays. I was approached by a certain helpful outreach worker to engage in various activities, of which the creative writing class was one.

The earliest example was ‘Letter to God’, in which I wrote in the middle of a stay at the psychiatry ward in Canberra Hospital. I felt, then, I had made a breakthrough of sorts and it remains a vital and essential part of my work. The rest gradually developed throughout the years in between(2006-2012). They are indicative of my personal progress during this later part of my life.


Introduction

I have been coming to creative writing for a number of years now. I consider it to be amongst my most important activities. Here I produce works that reflect my imaginative abilities to produce various affirmations that give me much vital energy to survive and thrive.


The writing group helps me focus on my work and is a great and friendly weekly get together. Gillian is a tour de force in her own right and stimulates and encourages me to work. When I am down I think about my creations and see things for what they are. I see my positive nature reflected in the various poems and writings and feel “Life can be terrible, but how tremendous it is for the spirit to rise above it.”


Life is strange, beautiful and paradoxical, yet ultimately good in every possible way.


Thank you creative writing.


Thank you Gillian.



Contents


Believe

Thinking In Ink

The Quest

I Shall Seek

First and Foremost

A While

No Greater

To the Limit and Beyond

Why Certainly

Total Desperation

Thing of Value

Thank You

The Key’s

Be True and Create

All’s Possible

Be

Wandering and Wondering

Throughout

The All

Yes

I Collect Good Things

Key To Power

Also

Destiny

I Do Feel

No Limits

The Mind and Life

Knowledge

If I Could

The Way and the Stars

Electric

The Three Gifts

Exquisite

To Become Whole

Of Words and Deeds

The Five Magical Qualities

Conscious End

Only

Necessary

There Is Care

I Am

Once a Dream

Possible

Highest

Beauty and Perfection

Happy That….

This of Mine

Climax

Visions

Stark

Renewal

Magic

Enchanting

Attempting the Impossible

Letter to God

Let’s

Duckies Forever

Duckies Love Fairy-Tales Too

Likes You

There’s a Fluffy Duck

Will You?

Now

Creature of Calm

It’s There

Thinking and Cultivating

A Wonderful One

Life

Promising

Strange

The Source

Truths and Values

Positive

Seed of Possibilities

Total Darkness

A Care For

In Eyes

Demetri

Cocky

Looking Good

The Mission

Power To Heal

Your Best Will Do

Dream Wish




I Believe


I believe in the power of Beautiful Dreams,

In this great world I have no power,

Only my ability to dream.

So that is my weapon against dark power:

I will dream the most beautiful dream for all good

beings in the Universe.

My Dream is to be able to offer

To every worthy being

the gifts of love;

that is the gift of Immortality

And the gift of Absolute Perfection Transcended.

May it be a gift worthy of measure of every good

being great and small.

And may He who cares accept my little gifts,

For that is my happiness.

To offer the Great One something he will accept

and appreciate: the gift of myself.



Thinking in Ink


Here I sit,

Upon the edge

Of an entire universe of thoughts.

The Cosmos is alive,

As my mind sieves all

In Search of Pearls of Wisdom.


Then I place pen on paper,

Creating the ultimate word creation.

Fantasy meets Reality,

A collision of opposites

In the quest for the elusive particle of meaning.



The Quest


The quest of the Holy Grail

A goal beyond all hope

A dream to behold

And, when the deed is done

Abide by this truth:

Forever is Eternity,

And Eternity a dream coming true.



I Shall Seek


I shall seek

To create the greatest beauty

Out of extreme ugliness –

The story of my life.



First and Foremost


Personal growth is a duty to oneself

Forget not this need has to be met first and foremost,

Then anything is possible.



A While


Here I sit,

Upon this rock,

Dreaming awhile:

The inner and outer me becoming more beautiful in time.



No Greater


I have grown in Beauty

Throughout the journey

Of a soul destroying life.

There can be no greater reward.



To the Limit and Beyond


I have always considered my life an experiment of sorts,

Always pushing myself to the limits and beyond

Of who and what I am.



Why Certainly


My life contains certain possibilities

When the greatest ones become a certainty,

Come celebrate joyfully with me.



Total Desperation


Totally desperate in my need for answers

I ventured deeper within

And came up with surprises of all kinds:

The unexpected in every sense of the word,

Hope in the form of vast expansive dreams,

Which brought light to the threatening darkness

Of my inner world.



Thing of Value


All of a sudden I have become

The very thing I most value in Life.



Thank you


My thanks to the Powers that Be

For their Care and Love

In this journey of a lifetime.



The Keys


In Life there lay hidden many keys.

Seek them.

Find the treasures they unlock.



Be True and Create


Beautiful thoughts come from a beautiful being

So be true, be true, be true….

And create beauty all around you.



All’s possible


All’s possible with deeds so pure.



Be


I wish to conquer the universe

By becoming the most beautiful being of all time and space.

Where Truth Beauty and Passion

Are in union,

And the fountain of youth

Reigns forevermore.


I wish to become the nicest boy of them all.

And the delicate flower that is me,

Will be an eternal blossom of life,

Forever set to overcome all obstacles in time.


I wish to be the prettiest star in the sky,

Offering to all

A light in the dark,

A guide to the path

And who may this very Star be?

Why someone none other than my little self,

A lone single star sparkling away in the endless skies.


Wandering and Wondering


I am wondering aloud,

At the expression of hope,

In the heart of day to day living.

Given this precious moment of realisation

I can see the possibilities:

To live for Good,

And the Good forever True.


I am wandering the streets,

In Search of new opportunities.

What can or cannot be.

The good fortunes of time

Forever here now in Reality.



Throughout


Throughout the eons of time

Mankind has moved onwards.

A pendulum between past and present

The time has come to recognize its achievement,

A single personal endurance,

The Avatar as the Christ Child.

A Singular point of Light in a darkened universe

But at the Central position.

And where am I in regard to all of this?

The journey has led me here.

Home is a little yonder.

I am where I am at my best,

Striving for the Grail Quest

And distilling my soul,

To be worthy

And much more beside.



The All


Of Light and Stars,

Man and the Eternal,

Beyond the All,

I lay and dream.



Yes


"What a terrible life this has been."

What a special person you now are.



I Collect Good Things


As I go through life

I pick up many things.

Objects of interest:

Books, music, knowledge, wisdom, habits…

I now collect positive attributes.

Good influences from all sources

And let them create,

A personal being of tremendous vitality in me.



Key To Power


Language is the Key to Power,

And with it through words, thoughts and deeds.



Also


Virginity is one of the expressions of Innocence.

It is also the icing on the cake.



Destiny


I am prepared to embrace my Destiny

For better or worse.

For whatever comes my way,

I shall make of it whatever I can.



I Do Feel


I feel the beauty inherent in nature

And the glory of the days

In the Timelessness of the Moment.



No Limits


A flash of illumination

Comes to me:

I must have no limits to achieve

What I want to achieve.

And with that last ounce of effort,

I went beyond into the unknown.




The Mind and Life


I have finally found the key to my world:

The more radiant the mind,

The more beautiful life is.



Knowledge


Certain Knowledge is best gained

By a sharing amongst friends

And through the written word.

Others are best lived through,

And can take a larger part of your life in the process.



If I Could


I wish to change the balance

Of good and evil in the universe

For the better.



The Way and the Stars


As a sole traveller of life

I journey the Way and follow the Stars.



Electric


Experiences electric and dire,

The ritual of white hot fire and ice.

The final test and challenge,

To be met with the utmost fidelity

Or in the shadow of The Ultimate Achievement.



The Three Gifts


Innocence throughout life.

A gentleness, in spite of the harshness of reality and our experiences.

And Beauty of the soul.




Exquisite


A beautiful thought:

A tiny dew drop on a petal.

Both so exquisite,

And both radiating vitality.



To Become Whole


As I take comfort in my warm thoughts

And emotionally charged realisations,

I become whole.


Of Words and Deeds


I wish there always will be a correctness to

my choice of words and to all my deeds.



The Five Magical Qualities


Truth, Beauty, Light, Goodness and Innocence

The essences of Life's eternal qualities.



Conscious End


To merge myself, the conscious with the unconscious.

The ultimate end of my reality,

So that no hidden malice or evil

Will exist in my inner world ever.



Only


You are only as beautiful as your dreams.



Necessary


Living a good life is fraught with dangers,

Reinterpretation is necessary

In the evaluation of what could possibly have been.



There is Care


I realize, after all, there is care.

That my world can be truly beautiful,

And the future full of endless possibilities.



I Am


Why, I am what I once wanted so desperately to be.

Time has finally revealed all,

And I can see it has been worth it for every part of that struggle to be.



Once a Dream


I am so happy that I have become the person I once dreamt of becoming.

Possible


When the pure in heart dreams,

There's magic for you.

When the unlikely becomes possible

And the possible flowers into Reality,

My very self would have finally found

Its true expression in the real world.



Highest


The Highest attainment in life is Absolute Absurdity:

This is where one goes through the very

worst possible experiences in life,

Yet remains cheerful, positive and radiantly happy.



Beauty and Perfection.


Beauty is an Eternal Quality

Especially where the outer

Reveals the inner.

A perfection of content and form.



Happy That….


I am so happy I retained my innocence

In this day and age,

Through thick and thin,

And with every terrible challenge

Life threw at me.



This of Mine


I love this innocence of mine:

It's an identity,

It's my only achievement so far

And one of the reasons

For my current happiness.


















Climax


Life’s achievements climaxed one dark and desperate night. As such a formal dedication of my life to all things pure and good from which past and future recede gently away, and the stuff dreams and memories are made of.



Visions


I believe not in large scale visions and enterprises but rather in personal love and intimate touches, influences in a cold and indifferent world.

To be beautiful, pure and innocent in all ways, as such to be a dreamy child, one whose life touches others.



Stark


A stark loneliness of time,

In the hearts of us virgins true.

The choice of lifetime’s desire,

All the purity and the knowledge that it entails.



Renewal


My Spirit is glad that my All is beautiful.

And yet again, after a long dry patch.





Magic


To feel the magic of moments

Is to be inspired,

And to be given the gift of life.

Cherish them for they hold the key

To an ever meaningful existence.



Enchanting


The enchantment of your Being,

O Eternal Beauty,

Is the pride of the Force of the Power of Light.

So may all your present happiness

And contentment,

Resonate in future memories to come.



Attempting the Impossible


I care enough to want to attempt the impossible. The need is urgent. The threat is a real one to our sense of purpose. The upholding of all that is good and pure in this universe. Everyone plays their part. Each and every being matters – even myself.




Letter to God


Dearest Daddy God

My dearest wish is to be home.

Home with you

In the Eternal skies,

Golden bright and true

You have my heart

You have my love

I will always be true

To you.

For you, the eternal one,

I am your child.

A child of light,

Yet I always will be who I am.

Only a little child at heart and at play.


It is the hour of my truth:

Purity transcended and white stars beyond.

I do not ask much.

Only tiny gestures and the touches of love.

A little bird singing,

A gentle breeze as I walk,

A gentle little happiness.

I do not want Greatness, Power, Knowledge nor Glory.

These things mean little to me

My happiness is in little things,

A I am "personal touch"

Love, your little child Marcus.


P.S. "To love with my body and soul - Pure Light"


Let's


From one duck to another,

I say merrily:

"Let's quack together!"



Duckies Forever


Cover me with a million ducks,

Then I'll feel like a million bucks.



Duckies love fairy-tales too


Feathers, pillows and beds.

Sunlight, water and air.

Princess falls asleep,

And duckies love fairy-tales too.



Likes You


A duck like you

Is the sweetest thing to come my way.

A duck like you

Is my sweet dream come true.

And so I'll quack for you,

If you'll quack for me.

Together we'll make our feather bed

Cosy, snug and warm.

Me and you,

My ducky friend,

Forever true.



There’s a Fluffy Ducky


There’s a fluffy ducky in my arms.

He’s soft and warm and sweet.

I love him to pieces.

He quacks softly,

He snuggles close to me,

I carry him home.

With him about, life is so sweet!



Will You?


“Will you be my fluffy ducky?”

This I asked my sugar sweets

“I am not a duck!”

Quacked she indignantly

And left me sad and all alone



Now


A magical truth is now my reality.

The moment of awakening is happening as I speak.



Creature of Calm


The nightmare of life’s experiences has produced in me

A creature of calm and gentle love,

Not something bitter and twisted,

As the case might have been.



It's there


Reach out for the stars

As the Eternal Spirit is beyond.





Thinking and cultivating


That is my goal:

Thinking only pure thoughts

And cultivating the senses

Into a finely tuned system of awareness.



A Wonderful One


Your mind, thoughts and deeds

Create your present,

And this changes future possibilities to come.

So be beautiful in all ways

And your universe will be a wonderful one.



Life


My complete life's existence,

With its ups and downs and its Forever-more after,

Is in its tough times

In all I do and be and am.

I take heart,

For in the dedication of my life's meaning

Is to the grand scheme of all things.

In the ultimate quest of life's journey

Is the renewal of light in darkness,

And to build a foundation

For the power of light's reign.

For Total Time Immortal Beyond.



Promising


From here I lay upon the cool green grass dreaming of a perfect future. Occasionally I slip back into a horrific past: dark mental institutions with sadistic nurses at the helm. Strangely enough my present is happy one, having survived a tumultuous life.

The sparkling blue sky above impresses me with its clarity and brilliant light. The spirit sings on a day like this. White magic in action.

I am consoled by the winds of change, that drive the rhythm of the universe. I now look forward to an ever more beautiful and promising future, placing myself in the care of the forces behind nature and all life.



Strange


There is a strange and terrifying beauty to my life.

There is also a sense of wonderment,

Its clear spirit I experience daily.

And I think, at times, nothing matters.



The Source


Innocence is the source of my great Beauty and Power.

It is also my Reality and Wonderful Dream come true.



Truths and Values


The truths which we live our lives

Will be shown to be the ones

Eternity values us by.



Positive


My subconscious deep within

Contains positive triumphant forces.

My imagination flows freely in affirmative fantasies.

These have been the rewards

Of a life well lived

Through various trials and tribulations.



Seed of Possibilities


Every soul is a seed of possibilities

Of which the greater the potential,

The greater the danger of corruption.

It's sad however many of us

Do not see the light

Of our innate giftings.



Total Darkness


I wish to negate the total darkness of humanity

By the nature of my innermost being.

By becoming the antithesis of worldly concerns

and practices.

In other words, its polar opposite.



A Care for


I want to bring the entire force of the

Power of Darkness to its knees. It's not

a matter of Ego caring deeply for Light

and Goodness, only that Evil does not deserve

better.



In Eyes


There is none other than a divine spark in crystal eyes.



Demetri


Our friendship was a feature of a distant past

When I was in youth and none-the-wiser. We

shall not meet again, for if so, devastation

is very likely as your Christian greatness and

Power is not in doubt.



Cocky


Cocky told me he was pretty,

Cocky told me I could have him.

Well, Cocky Sweetie,

Could we make it

In a hurry

'Round the bend!



Looking Good


Eternity within the mind

Infinity beyond the eye.



The Mission


Forever questing for the Eternal Dream.



Power to Heal


I am healing myself through the Power of

Beautiful thoughts.



Your Best Will Do


A terrible time awaits you

But if you rise to the challenge,

There will be immense rewards and much gain.

So take heart and place your nose to the grinding stone.

The worst is yet to come,

The best in you will do especially well.


Dream Wish


In the darkest of night,

I stand in centre field

Chanting pointing to a star above

“Starlight, Starbright

First star I see tonight.

I wish I may, I wish I might,

Have the wish I wish tonight”


The star falls down upon me

Breaking into five pieces,

Forming a circle around me.

I get five wishes and speak out my hearts desire:

“I wish for light to triumph over darkness in all possible

universes!”

“I wish for Eternity to belong to the Light, Truth and

Goodness!”

“I wish upon a star to be truly a Child of Light, no more

no less!”

“I wish for no praise nor a place in His circle of initiates

only to be with family and friends where I belong!”

“Wishes are like dreams. They come true after you have lived accordingly.

So I end the night wishing everyone beauty happiness

and good fortune, and look forward to the coming

dawn ahead.






Endless


In the end what matters is endless.