Reflections Along a Journey Under a Million Stars
Marcus CCC |
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Copyright 2014 Marcus CCC
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Dedication
The present little book and work is dedicated to the staff and clients of the Leisure and Day to Day Living Programs at Tuggeranong. Special mention must be made of Gillian Pollack, whose creative writing class I am indebted to, Daniel Daly, whose help on word processing was of vital importance, and Serena Fisher, without whom the project would never have got off the ground.
Special thanks to Peter Di Fronzo for his friendship and love over the years.>>>
Foreword
These pieces of creative writing were put together after a series of hospital stays. I was approached by a certain helpful outreach worker to engage in various activities, of which the creative writing class was one.
The earliest example was ‘Letter to God’, in which I wrote in the middle of a stay at the psychiatry ward in Canberra Hospital. I felt, then, I had made a breakthrough of sorts and it remains a vital and essential part of my work. The rest gradually developed throughout the years in between(2006-2012). They are indicative of my personal progress during this later part of my life.
Introduction
I have been coming to creative writing for a number of years now. I consider it to be amongst my most important activities. Here I produce works that reflect my imaginative abilities to produce various affirmations that give me much vital energy to survive and thrive.
The writing group helps me focus on my work and is a great and friendly weekly get together. Gillian is a tour de force in her own right and stimulates and encourages me to work. When I am down I think about my creations and see things for what they are. I see my positive nature reflected in the various poems and writings and feel “Life can be terrible, but how tremendous it is for the spirit to rise above it.”
Life is strange, beautiful and paradoxical, yet ultimately good in every possible way.
Thank you creative writing.
Thank you Gillian.
Believe
Thinking In Ink
The Quest
I Shall Seek
First and Foremost
A While
No Greater
To the Limit and Beyond
Why Certainly
Total Desperation
Thing of Value
Thank You
The Key’s
Be True and Create
All’s Possible
Be
Wandering and Wondering
Throughout
The All
Yes
I Collect Good Things
Key To Power
Also
Destiny
I Do Feel
No Limits
The Mind and Life
Knowledge
If I Could
The Way and the Stars
Electric
The Three Gifts
Exquisite
To Become Whole
Of Words and Deeds
The Five Magical Qualities
Conscious End
Only
Necessary
There Is Care
I Am
Once a Dream
Possible
Highest
Beauty and Perfection
Happy That….
This of Mine
Climax
Visions
Stark
Renewal
Magic
Enchanting
Attempting the Impossible
Letter to God
Let’s
Duckies Forever
Duckies Love Fairy-Tales Too
Likes You
There’s a Fluffy Duck
Will You?
Now
Creature of Calm
It’s There
Thinking and Cultivating
A Wonderful One
Life
Promising
Strange
The Source
Truths and Values
Positive
Seed of Possibilities
Total Darkness
A Care For
In Eyes
Demetri
Cocky
Looking Good
The Mission
Power To Heal
Your Best Will Do
Dream Wish
I Believe
I believe in the power of Beautiful Dreams,
In this great world I have no power,
Only my ability to dream.
So that is my weapon against dark power:
I will dream the most beautiful dream for all good
beings in the Universe.
My Dream is to be able to offer
To every worthy being
the gifts of love;
that is the gift of Immortality
And the gift of Absolute Perfection Transcended.
May it be a gift worthy of measure of every good
being great and small.
And may He who cares accept my little gifts,
For that is my happiness.
To offer the Great One something he will accept
and appreciate: the gift of myself.
Thinking in Ink
Here I sit,
Upon the edge
Of an entire universe of thoughts.
The Cosmos is alive,
As my mind sieves all
In Search of Pearls of Wisdom.
Then I place pen on paper,
Creating the ultimate word creation.
Fantasy meets Reality,
A collision of opposites
In the quest for the elusive particle of meaning.
The Quest
The quest of the Holy Grail
A goal beyond all hope
A dream to behold
And, when the deed is done
Abide by this truth:
Forever is Eternity,
And Eternity a dream coming true.
I Shall Seek
I shall seek
To create the greatest beauty
Out of extreme ugliness –
The story of my life.
First and Foremost
Personal growth is a duty to oneself
Forget not this need has to be met first and foremost,
Then anything is possible.
A While
Here I sit,
Upon this rock,
Dreaming awhile:
The inner and outer me becoming more beautiful in time.
No Greater
I have grown in Beauty
Throughout the journey
Of a soul destroying life.
There can be no greater reward.
To the Limit and Beyond
I have always considered my life an experiment of sorts,
Always pushing myself to the limits and beyond
Of who and what I am.
Why Certainly
My life contains certain possibilities
When the greatest ones become a certainty,
Come celebrate joyfully with me.
Total Desperation
Totally desperate in my need for answers
I ventured deeper within
And came up with surprises of all kinds:
The unexpected in every sense of the word,
Hope in the form of vast expansive dreams,
Which brought light to the threatening darkness
Of my inner world.
Thing of Value
All of a sudden I have become
The very thing I most value in Life.
Thank you
My thanks to the Powers that Be
For their Care and Love
In this journey of a lifetime.
The Keys
In Life there lay hidden many keys.
Seek them.
Find the treasures they unlock.
Be True and Create
Beautiful thoughts come from a beautiful being
So be true, be true, be true….
And create beauty all around you.
All’s possible
All’s possible with deeds so pure.
Be
I wish to conquer the universe
By becoming the most beautiful being of all time and space.
Where Truth Beauty and Passion
Are in union,
And the fountain of youth
Reigns forevermore.
I wish to become the nicest boy of them all.
And the delicate flower that is me,
Will be an eternal blossom of life,
Forever set to overcome all obstacles in time.
I wish to be the prettiest star in the sky,
Offering to all
A light in the dark,
A guide to the path
And who may this very Star be?
Why someone none other than my little self,
A lone single star sparkling away in the endless skies.
Wandering and Wondering
I am wondering aloud,
At the expression of hope,
In the heart of day to day living.
Given this precious moment of realisation
I can see the possibilities:
To live for Good,
And the Good forever True.
I am wandering the streets,
In Search of new opportunities.
What can or cannot be.
The good fortunes of time
Forever here now in Reality.
Throughout
Throughout the eons of time
Mankind has moved onwards.
A pendulum between past and present
The time has come to recognize its achievement,
A single personal endurance,
The Avatar as the Christ Child.
A Singular point of Light in a darkened universe
But at the Central position.
And where am I in regard to all of this?
The journey has led me here.
Home is a little yonder.
I am where I am at my best,
Striving for the Grail Quest
And distilling my soul,
To be worthy
And much more beside.
The All
Of Light and Stars,
Man and the Eternal,
Beyond the All,
I lay and dream.
Yes
"What a terrible life this has been."
What a special person you now are.
I Collect Good Things
As I go through life
I pick up many things.
Objects of interest:
Books, music, knowledge, wisdom, habits…
I now collect positive attributes.
Good influences from all sources
And let them create,
A personal being of tremendous vitality in me.
Key To Power
Language is the Key to Power,
And with it through words, thoughts and deeds.
Also
Virginity is one of the expressions of Innocence.
It is also the icing on the cake.
Destiny
I am prepared to embrace my Destiny
For better or worse.
For whatever comes my way,
I shall make of it whatever I can.
I Do Feel
I feel the beauty inherent in nature
And the glory of the days
In the Timelessness of the Moment.
No Limits
A flash of illumination
Comes to me:
I must have no limits to achieve
What I want to achieve.
And with that last ounce of effort,
I went beyond into the unknown.
The Mind and Life
I have finally found the key to my world:
The more radiant the mind,
The more beautiful life is.
Knowledge
Certain Knowledge is best gained
By a sharing amongst friends
And through the written word.
Others are best lived through,
And can take a larger part of your life in the process.
If I Could
I wish to change the balance
Of good and evil in the universe
For the better.
The Way and the Stars
As a sole traveller of life
I journey the Way and follow the Stars.
Electric
Experiences electric and dire,
The ritual of white hot fire and ice.
The final test and challenge,
To be met with the utmost fidelity
Or in the shadow of The Ultimate Achievement.
The Three Gifts
Innocence throughout life.
A gentleness, in spite of the harshness of reality and our experiences.
And Beauty of the soul.
Exquisite
A beautiful thought:
A tiny dew drop on a petal.
Both so exquisite,
And both radiating vitality.
To Become Whole
As I take comfort in my warm thoughts
And emotionally charged realisations,
I become whole.
Of Words and Deeds
I wish there always will be a correctness to
my choice of words and to all my deeds.
The Five Magical Qualities
Truth, Beauty, Light, Goodness and Innocence
The essences of Life's eternal qualities.
Conscious End
To merge myself, the conscious with the unconscious.
The ultimate end of my reality,
So that no hidden malice or evil
Will exist in my inner world ever.
Only
You are only as beautiful as your dreams.
Necessary
Living a good life is fraught with dangers,
Reinterpretation is necessary
In the evaluation of what could possibly have been.
There is Care
I realize, after all, there is care.
That my world can be truly beautiful,
And the future full of endless possibilities.
I Am
Why, I am what I once wanted so desperately to be.
Time has finally revealed all,
And I can see it has been worth it for every part of that struggle to be.
Once a Dream
I am so happy that I have become the person I once dreamt of becoming.
Possible
When the pure in heart dreams,
There's magic for you.
When the unlikely becomes possible
And the possible flowers into Reality,
My very self would have finally found
Its true expression in the real world.
Highest
The Highest attainment in life is Absolute Absurdity:
This is where one goes through the very
worst possible experiences in life,
Yet remains cheerful, positive and radiantly happy.
Beauty and Perfection.
Beauty is an Eternal Quality
Especially where the outer
Reveals the inner.
A perfection of content and form.
Happy That….
I am so happy I retained my innocence
In this day and age,
Through thick and thin,
And with every terrible challenge
Life threw at me.
This of Mine
I love this innocence of mine:
It's an identity,
It's my only achievement so far
And one of the reasons
For my current happiness.
Climax
Life’s achievements climaxed one dark and desperate night. As such a formal dedication of my life to all things pure and good from which past and future recede gently away, and the stuff dreams and memories are made of.
Visions
I believe not in large scale visions and enterprises but rather in personal love and intimate touches, influences in a cold and indifferent world.
To be beautiful, pure and innocent in all ways, as such to be a dreamy child, one whose life touches others.
Stark
A stark loneliness of time,
In the hearts of us virgins true.
The choice of lifetime’s desire,
All the purity and the knowledge that it entails.
Renewal
My Spirit is glad that my All is beautiful.
And yet again, after a long dry patch.
Magic
To feel the magic of moments
Is to be inspired,
And to be given the gift of life.
Cherish them for they hold the key
To an ever meaningful existence.
Enchanting
The enchantment of your Being,
O Eternal Beauty,
Is the pride of the Force of the Power of Light.
So may all your present happiness
And contentment,
Resonate in future memories to come.
Attempting the Impossible
I care enough to want to attempt the impossible. The need is urgent. The threat is a real one to our sense of purpose. The upholding of all that is good and pure in this universe. Everyone plays their part. Each and every being matters – even myself.
Letter to God
Dearest Daddy God
My dearest wish is to be home.
Home with you
In the Eternal skies,
Golden bright and true
You have my heart
You have my love
I will always be true
To you.
For you, the eternal one,
I am your child.
A child of light,
Yet I always will be who I am.
Only a little child at heart and at play.
It is the hour of my truth:
Purity transcended and white stars beyond.
I do not ask much.
Only tiny gestures and the touches of love.
A little bird singing,
A gentle breeze as I walk,
A gentle little happiness.
I do not want Greatness, Power, Knowledge nor Glory.
These things mean little to me
My happiness is in little things,
A I am "personal touch"
Love, your little child Marcus.
P.S. "To love with my body and soul - Pure Light"
Let's
From one duck to another,
I say merrily:
"Let's quack together!"
Duckies Forever
Cover me with a million ducks,
Then I'll feel like a million bucks.
Duckies love fairy-tales too
Feathers, pillows and beds.
Sunlight, water and air.
Princess falls asleep,
And duckies love fairy-tales too.
Likes You
A duck like you
Is the sweetest thing to come my way.
A duck like you
Is my sweet dream come true.
And so I'll quack for you,
If you'll quack for me.
Together we'll make our feather bed
Cosy, snug and warm.
Me and you,
My ducky friend,
Forever true.
There’s a Fluffy Ducky
There’s a fluffy ducky in my arms.
He’s soft and warm and sweet.
I love him to pieces.
He quacks softly,
He snuggles close to me,
I carry him home.
With him about, life is so sweet!
Will You?
“Will you be my fluffy ducky?”
This I asked my sugar sweets
“I am not a duck!”
Quacked she indignantly
And left me sad and all alone
Now
A magical truth is now my reality.
The moment of awakening is happening as I speak.
Creature of Calm
The nightmare of life’s experiences has produced in me
A creature of calm and gentle love,
Not something bitter and twisted,
As the case might have been.
It's there
Reach out for the stars
As the Eternal Spirit is beyond.
Thinking and cultivating
That is my goal:
Thinking only pure thoughts
And cultivating the senses
Into a finely tuned system of awareness.
A Wonderful One
Your mind, thoughts and deeds
Create your present,
And this changes future possibilities to come.
So be beautiful in all ways
And your universe will be a wonderful one.
Life
My complete life's existence,
With its ups and downs and its Forever-more after,
Is in its tough times
In all I do and be and am.
I take heart,
For in the dedication of my life's meaning
Is to the grand scheme of all things.
In the ultimate quest of life's journey
Is the renewal of light in darkness,
And to build a foundation
For the power of light's reign.
For Total Time Immortal Beyond.
Promising
From here I lay upon the cool green grass dreaming of a perfect future. Occasionally I slip back into a horrific past: dark mental institutions with sadistic nurses at the helm. Strangely enough my present is happy one, having survived a tumultuous life.
The sparkling blue sky above impresses me with its clarity and brilliant light. The spirit sings on a day like this. White magic in action.
I am consoled by the winds of change, that drive the rhythm of the universe. I now look forward to an ever more beautiful and promising future, placing myself in the care of the forces behind nature and all life.
Strange
There is a strange and terrifying beauty to my life.
There is also a sense of wonderment,
Its clear spirit I experience daily.
And I think, at times, nothing matters.
The Source
Innocence is the source of my great Beauty and Power.
It is also my Reality and Wonderful Dream come true.
Truths and Values
The truths which we live our lives
Will be shown to be the ones
Eternity values us by.
Positive
My subconscious deep within
Contains positive triumphant forces.
My imagination flows freely in affirmative fantasies.
These have been the rewards
Of a life well lived
Through various trials and tribulations.
Seed of Possibilities
Every soul is a seed of possibilities
Of which the greater the potential,
The greater the danger of corruption.
It's sad however many of us
Do not see the light
Of our innate giftings.
Total Darkness
I wish to negate the total darkness of humanity
By the nature of my innermost being.
By becoming the antithesis of worldly concerns
and practices.
In other words, its polar opposite.
A Care for
I want to bring the entire force of the
Power of Darkness to its knees. It's not
a matter of Ego caring deeply for Light
and Goodness, only that Evil does not deserve
better.
In Eyes
There is none other than a divine spark in crystal eyes.
Demetri
Our friendship was a feature of a distant past
When I was in youth and none-the-wiser. We
shall not meet again, for if so, devastation
is very likely as your Christian greatness and
Power is not in doubt.
Cocky
Cocky told me he was pretty,
Cocky told me I could have him.
Well, Cocky Sweetie,
Could we make it
In a hurry
'Round the bend!
Looking Good
Eternity within the mind
Infinity beyond the eye.
The Mission
Forever questing for the Eternal Dream.
Power to Heal
I am healing myself through the Power of
Beautiful thoughts.
Your Best Will Do
A terrible time awaits you
But if you rise to the challenge,
There will be immense rewards and much gain.
So take heart and place your nose to the grinding stone.
The worst is yet to come,
The best in you will do especially well.
Dream Wish
In the darkest of night,
I stand in centre field
Chanting pointing to a star above
“Starlight, Starbright
First star I see tonight.
I wish I may, I wish I might,
Have the wish I wish tonight”
The star falls down upon me
Breaking into five pieces,
Forming a circle around me.
I get five wishes and speak out my hearts desire:
“I wish for light to triumph over darkness in all possible
universes!”
“I wish for Eternity to belong to the Light, Truth and
Goodness!”
“I wish upon a star to be truly a Child of Light, no more
no less!”
“I wish for no praise nor a place in His circle of initiates
only to be with family and friends where I belong!”
“Wishes are like dreams. They come true after you have lived accordingly.
So I end the night wishing everyone beauty happiness
and good fortune, and look forward to the coming
dawn ahead.
Endless
In the end what matters is endless.